Why I blog...

I use this blog as a kind of therapy. Sometimes I'm happy and want to share it, sometimes it's just a random thought and sometimes it's to deal with things in my past. After all a burden shared is a burden halved

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

You



You

You obliterated my future.
You destroyed my perceptions of love- they were wrong.
You ruined me for any future relationships- there can be none.
You tore down my walls of self loathing and doubt.
You annihilated my insecurities.

You

You shattered my expectations of normal.
You entice my very being with all that you are.

You

Not content to simply get under my skin, you seeped into my blood stream and your essence flows through my veins.

You

I never came looking for you and yet you found me.
You are a part of me now and forever.

You

Your scent entices me and lingers when you are not there.
Your touch excites me and I feel alive.

You

You challenge me.
You stimulate me.
You intrigue me.
You have changed me.

You

I am completely and utterly enamoured by you.

You

Sometimes my dreams take me back to a dark world before you and I wonder if you are real but then I wake up and you are beside me and I am content.


Monday, May 18, 2015

Shedding some load....

Shedding some load...

I know that load shedding is a pain in the arse and seems to come at the most inconvenient of times but my ever optimistic brain has learned to see the bright side. (pun intended)

My husband and I are early risers which also means we are usually in bed pretty early too (yeah we are old) After dinner we chat for a little and then retire to our bedroom to watch series. Last week we had a bout of load shedding during our 'series time' as my laptop was not fully charged we decided we would sit in the lounge and chat fo half of the time and then watch one episode of our current series as my battery would probably only last that long. We started playing 'who am I' A game where one person thinks of someone and the other has to guess who it is by asking only 20 questions. While playing this game the lights came on and we realised that we had been playing for two hours.

When my step kids came to stay later on in the week, they joined in too and we played some more. Now I know a lot has been said about technology free time and that we should switch off and connect as real human beings every now and then, but how many of us actually do that. These load shedding times have forced us to do just that and instead of moaning about it, I have decided to take this opportunity to spend my time wisely. So we can't change it and we have to endure it, we may as well make it pleasant.

Today in my classroom a group of girls were playing in the kitchen corner during free play, when one of them them said; "Let's play load shedding". I watched curiously as they made a picnic on the floor with the toy food and pretended to light imaginary candles while chatting to each other.

I imagine this is what must be happening all around Cape Town during load shedding. Families are connecting, having conversations and getting to know one another. I'll light a candle to that.